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Shinji Ikari | Rebuild of Evangelion
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Character
Name: Shinji Ikari
Fandom: Neon Genesis Evangelion (Rebuild of Evangelion)
Gender: Male
Age: Fourteen
Time Period: Morning of the Unit-03 test in Evangelion 2.0
Wing Color: White
History: Evangelion 1.0 plot summary and Evangelion 2.0 plot summary.
Shinji Ikari | Rebuild of Evangelion
…or, at least, that’s what Shinji thinks. Since his father abandoned him, Shinji convinced himself that he was useless, unnecessary. According to the series creator, Shinji thinks he’s so unnecessary that he can’t even commit suicide, no matter how much he hates himself. He doesn’t think he has any particularly good qualities, which is partly why when he’s first told to pilot the Evangelion, he refuses. “I can’t do it, it’s impossible. What you’re asking me is impossible!” Shinji, who lived day to day simply by accepting whatever came his way, didn’t think he had what it would take to fight the angels attacking the city. He doesn’t think he has what it takes to save mankind. Even after multiple experiences piloting the Eva, he still doesn’t think he’s any good at it. The other pilots are surely better than him, so why did his father ask for him?
Shinji wants to have a purpose, though. He wants to be needed, he wants his father to acknowledge him, and he wants to have a reason to live. These are the reasons that despite feeling betrayed by his father, he went to Nerv and agreed to pilot the Evangelion multiple times despite being absolutely terrified of what he would have to do. When asked about why he does it, he changes his reasons constantly, but the main reason, the one he rarely ever speaks about, is because he hopes to someday finally be accepted by his father. He wants his father to praise him—this is his main motivation.
Because Shinji never had that acceptance, he spent a good part of his life alone. He is withdrawn, distant, and doesn’t make friends easily because he’s afraid of trusting others. He even says that he used to hate dealing with people, that he even hated being praised. He’s afraid that if he places the same trust in others that he had his father, they’re just going to hurt him the same way that his father did. Ritsuko Akagi compares Shinji’s situation to the hedgehog’s dilemma—even though hedgehogs want to get close for warmth, they can’t because if they get too close, they’ll poke each other with their quills. Shinji can’t reach out to others because he knows that getting close to them means a greater chance of him getting hurt, but instead of trying to find a comfortable distance, he just avoids people all together.
This isn’t to say that Shinji pushes people away, however. He’s actually quite polite toward others, though he usually isn’t the first to approach. While he is generally shy and introverted, he’s actually pretty friendly once you get to know him. He even starts to look out for his friends once he feels more comfortable around them. (For example, he makes Rei a special lunch when she tells him that she doesn’t eat meat, and in the anime when Kensuke talks about how much he’d love to pilot his own giant robot, Shinji points out that his mother would probably worry about him.) It would be more appropriate to say that Shinji keeps others at arm’s length—while he prefers to keep to himself rather than interact with others, he generally doesn’t push away people who reach out to him. If he didn’t keep to himself so much, he’d probably have no problems making friends, but he’s only just getting used to being around so many other people.
Shinji Ikari | Rebuild of Evangelion
He also really cares about what people think of him. In fact, he cares too much. While approval from his father is the most important, he cares about what others think of him, too. He wants to be noticed and he wants people to treat him well, and if he isn’t, he runs away. After Touji’s death in the manga, for example, Shinji refuses to return to school because he couldn’t face his friends. When Misato yells at him for not following orders, Shinji literally runs away, wandering around the city and even sleeping in the streets overnight. His main motivation is his father’s approval, but people notice him when he pilots the Evangelion—they praise him, they compliment him, and it feels good. This is another reason that he pilots. He pilots because people will like him, they’ll appreciate what he’s doing. At the same time, because Shinji thinks so little of himself, he’ll never be happy with that alone. As long as he thinks he’s worthless, he’ll remind himself that he doesn’t deserve the praise that people give him.
By this point, Shinji’s learning to be a little more honest, both with himself and others. While the other boys are busy fawning over Misato in the anime, Shinji doesn’t hesitate to let them know how much of a slob she actually is. He even tells Misato that it’s no wonder she’s still single by her age when she starts her mornings off with a beer and forgets to cook breakfast for them. He’s received words of praise from his father and realizes that this might be what he wants in life—he even admits this to Asuka when she asks why he pilots the Eva, saying that this might be his reason. Although he used to dislike praise, it felt good when his father told him how well he did. Similarly, while he disliked being around people before, he’s finally making some real friends. He’s a little less closed-off than he is at the start (even if the difference isn’t much), though it probably wouldn’t take anything too big to make him shut the world away again.
Shinji Ikari | Rebuild of Evangelion
Even though Shinji’s reasons for being a pilot are entirely self-serving, it doesn’t change the fact that he is helpful to others because of it. It’s praise and purpose that he seeks, but he’s still helping others by continuing to pilot. He can’t stand to see his friends hurting and in pain, so even when he tries to leave Nerv and forget about everything, he always ends up coming back. On a lesser scale (that is, minus the giant biomechanical robots), Shinji is still helpful in other ways—he cleans up Rei’s room for her while she’s out, simply because he knows it shouldn’t be left a mess, he makes lunches for his friends, and he is always concerned about their safety.
Shinji is pretty self-sufficient. He’s lived without his parents for a long time, so he’s used to doing things for himself. He learns to cook after living with Misato, simply because she is absolutely awful at it (because unlike her, he can’t survive on a steady diet of beer, snacks, and instant meals), and his friends agree that he’s actually pretty good at it. As a result, he even ends up preparing lunches for himself and his friends at school. He’s also played the cello since he was five, though the only reason he still plays is because “no one told him to stop.” He insists that even though he’s played for so long, he’s not very good at it, but Asuka disagrees. This might be a sign that Shinji’s better at more things than he gives himself credit for.
Shinji Ikari | Rebuild of Evangelion
Since Shinji has no self-worth, he tries to find his personal value in others. He wants people to notice him, he wants people to like him, so he pilots the Evangelion despite being absolutely terrified of it. If he does well, then maybe his father will need him. Maybe he’ll praise him again. It feels good to feel needed, to have a purpose. However, if people don’t react well, he’ll run away. If there is a chance of him getting hurt, he’ll run away. Shinji’s natural response to pain is to run away, whether literally or figuratively—he’s refused to come home on multiple occasions just so he wouldn’t have to face his roommates and he’s plugged in his headphones and shut out the world just so he won’t have to face the reality of things. He doesn’t like being hurt, so he tries to avoid the things that hurt him, even if running away ends up being more painful than the thing that hurt him in the first place. He hasn’t realized yet that running away is pointless and sometimes more painful than anything else.
When Shinji becomes emotional, he really becomes emotional. He doesn’t tend to be very honest about his feelings, but when something hurts, when there’s nothing else he can do about it, he will let everyone know. In the anime when Touji asked Shinji to hit him back, Shinji was in tears when he told Touji that it was he who deserved to be hit, not his friend. He even went on to explain why (“I'm a coward! I'm dishonest, I'm sneaky, and a wimp.”). When Shinji was forced to fight the angel-possessed Evangelion that Asuka was piloting, he was so upset about his father having forced him to fight that he started threatening to blow up Nerv Headquarters afterward. He had to be forcefully subdued before they could move on because in that state, Shinji was a very real threat. While not as quick to snap as his manga counterpart, when Shinji gets angry, he gets angry. Once the initial shock of things wears off, though, he usually becomes despondent, and it can take days for him to get out of it.
Because he is shy and not very outgoing, Shinji may seem like the kind of person that is difficult to get along with. Touji even states that Shinji seems like an entirely different person after getting to know him better. Even though he tends to be polite toward other people, he keeps to himself so much that he isn’t easy to approach, and he’s probably fine with that. He’s also the kind of person who generally tries to avoid confrontation, so when Touji went to hit him because his sister was hurt in an angel attack, Shinji didn’t do much to fight back. He doesn’t stand up for himself very often, and even when he does, he usually just ends up giving in.
Shinji Ikari | Rebuild of Evangelion
First Person: Um… I was walking back to my apartment today and I saw a beautiful garden outside someone’s house. I remembered something someone told me and… well, I was wondering, why do you grow plants? Do you have a special reason for it?
…I-if you grow them, I mean. I was just curious if people had other reasons for growing them. I didn’t know that people grow plants other than because they have to. You don’t see a lot of people growing plants where I come from. …I guess because they can’t. The plants here are really different, though. I saw flowers I’ve never even seen before. It’s nice to see things like that.
Third Person: Had it really been a month already?
Shinji’s feelings about the place had shifted too many times to count just over the course of a month alone. At first, it was a very welcome escape from reality, even if it was strange. Here, he wouldn’t be made to do things that he didn’t want to do. Here, he could live peacefully without having to worry about getting into the Evangelion again or fighting the angels or the world ending or… anything like that. Here, he could live without consequence. Sure, his friends weren’t here, but he was used to being alone, so he didn’t mind it. At first, living like this was actually kind of peaceful.
But as the days passed, he found himself starting to feel anxious. He felt anxious because there were no angels here, no Eva, no Nerv, no anything. To have gone from doing nothing to doing something to doing nothing again felt very strange. It was almost like he didn’t know what to do with himself anymore. And then, there was an experiment, which only served to frustrate him even more. Shinji had been warned about the experiments, but he hadn’t really been worried about them. Not until he actually experienced one himself. Now, he was worried, maybe even a little afraid.
With this in mind, Shinji felt an odd sense of relief when he finally came across his father’s old cassette player in the store that afternoon. Relief and… something else. He had found comfort in this thing for a very long time and yet, for some reason, he couldn’t help hesitating to pick it up again. The experiment was partly to blame for that, he was sure, but it might have had to do with what was going on at home, too. Sometimes, he wanted nothing to do with any of those things. Sometimes, he didn’t really care if the world ended or not. But in Luceti, he didn’t have to think about those things and…
He felt useless. That useless feeling might be what drove him to pick up the old cassette player, check for batteries, and put the headphones in despite whatever had made him hesitate. The sound of music that filled his ears was relaxing. He missed it. It had been so much harder to shut things out without this thing. If he had this, he wouldn’t have to think about what he was missing here or about experiments that might make him go crazy or about friends leaving him behind. He wouldn’t have to think about whether or not he wanted to stay here or if he wanted to go home right this very moment. Sometimes, it was better if he just didn’t think at all.
The walk back to the apartment is probably one of the most peaceful walks he’s had since the day he set foot in Luceti.
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