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At her job as the Director of Operations with NERV, she leaves her childish attitudes behind. ...Most of the time. Her position demands a level head in tight situations, because a thousand different things can go completely wrong in a mission involving teenager-piloted giant robots fighting against massive super-beings. Who knew. But Misato follows through, keeping her cool and making swift decisions when mere seconds could spell the difference between failure and success. She is more than willing to take a chance when wedged between a rock and a hard place – even if the odds of success are appallingly low, she will try anything it takes to make a mission work. Trying something, no matter how far-fetched, is better than sitting back and hoping for the best. Determined efforts are better than waiting for a miracle, in her own words, and so she takes action when it is necessary. Otherwise, she says she would regret it for the rest of her life, wondering what might have happened if she had given up.
Her determination and perseverance stem largely from her strong sense of duty to her job, which has grounding in her familial bonds. Misato joined NERV, the organization that fights against the Angels, out of a desire for revenge. Her father was killed in Second Impact, after using his last breaths to place Misato in a protective pod to ensure her safety, so she wants to defeat the Angels who initiated the catastrophic explosion. It’s a bit more complicated than a daughter acting out of love for her deceased father...because Misato despised her father for her entire childhood. She hated him for favoring engagement with work over engagement with other humans, always ignoring her and her mother. However, after he sacrifices his life for hers she becomes confused about what she should feel, because she sees his sacrifice as a turning point in their relationship. She feels cheated out of an opportunity to finally grow close to him.
Despite the practical and logical nature of her job, Misato has a difficult time severing herself from her emotions and morals while on duty. The design of the Evangelions necessitates that they be piloted by children who were born in the year after Second Impact and are now 14 years old (because science is really dumb like that), and Misato is very, very aware that she is sending kids -- not soldiers –out in battle. She may be in charge of tactics, but she cannot think of the Eva pilots as her pawns. There is a constant struggle between her sense of duty and her emotional ties because she cannot separate the pilots from their humanity. She feels a strong sense of guilt for using Shinji, Asuka, and Rei (and later Toji and Kaworu) as weapons, which manifests itself in concerted attempts to be kind and friendly to them as a means of apology for involving them in something so demanding and painful.
She is very perceptive, such as when she notices little things here and there that are very ‘off’ throughout the series. She is aware that NERV is hiding important secrets and she wants to get to the bottom of it, by any means necessary. Her determination drives her to extremes, including sleeping with Kaji in exchange for information. Her perceptiveness extends into the territory of emotions as well. She is particularly perceptive of Shinji’s emotions, in part because she can see a lot of herself in him...which leads to a tendency to project herself and her own feelings onto him regardless of accuracy. When she was his age, she had just been through Second Impact and became emotionally despondent and mute for two years in response to the traumatic incident. She was lonely, and continues to feel a pervasive sense of loneliness into the present, despite all outward appearances of a happy woman. Her light, flighty attitude serves as an emotional defense mechanism – it allows for superficial relationships to form, so as to stave off her loneliness, but it curbs any growth of substantial relationships that could hurt her.
Misato’s emotional state can be related to philosopher Arthur Schopenhauer’s allegory of the hedgehog’s dilemma: hedgehogs require closeness with one another for warmth, but at the same time that closeness opens up the possibility of being pricked by the other hedgehogs’ quills. Humans function in the same way, toiling to find the right balance in order to maximize emotional warmth while eliminating emotional pain, and Misato’s unresolved emotional issues center around this endless struggle. She is afraid of loneliness, but terrified of genuine interpersonal interaction. Commitment, responsibility, and the possibility of failing (and thus getting hurt) repel her from trying to form connections with others on anything that goes beyond the surface. Her craving for human contact cannot be stamped out by her fears, however, so she is heavily dependent on others for emotional support and validation, especially Kaji and Shinji. When she and Kaji date in college, she is attached to him by a very short rope; at one point, she stops going to classes for weeks because she is holed up with him in their apartment. She breaks up with him after she realizes that he was just like her father in the sense that he lets his work absorb in – essentially, she fears her emotions and so she runs away.
The end of the series reveals a darker, more self-hating layer of Misato’s personality, hidden far beneath the surface. These are the parts of herself that she hates the most. As a result of her family problems, she strived as a young girl to be the quintessential “good girl” in an attempt to earn her father’s love and draw him away from his work. As she became older, she began to reject that ideation – it warped into a secret desire to do everything possible to destroy the “good girl” image, which is likely a reaction to wanting to leave the past behind. She says herself that there’s nothing wrong with trying to escape the things that you don’t like – even though she has reprimanded Shinji for doing the same thing. She just wants to convince herself that she’s happy, to ignore everything that’s wrong. At the same time, she seems to run away from happiness as well. She admits that she was happy when she was with Kaji, but hated it because she thought that in finding happiness she was just ignoring the harsh reality that she would just be left behind eventually. Basically, the human psyche can be a terribly messy place.